Im Really SAD! Why it had to end this way?

Recently, I just broke up with my boyfriend (17th November 2010). It's so hard to accept the fact that he is gone forever. I love him so much more than my parents, yeah  that's kinda rude, right? Yes that's what LOVE can do. After all I've done to him, he still Love me very much. We loved each other. We had dream to have a baby boy togeher. That was nice huh? But all is gone!!! But from the bottom of my heart, I still love him, and I wanna be with him. I still wanna have his babies. If he still want me back, I would be Glad. I will behave myself, I will never hurt him anymoe. NEVER EVER. I  will make him happy.